I will trust You always – June 15
“I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this, you will lead me by the right road, though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore will I trust you always, I will not fear, for you are ever with me,
and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.”
At the heart of our spiritual life is prayer. Prayer is simply a waiting for God. It is about opening ourselves to God’s initiative. In prayer we relinquish control. We wait upon the Divine action. We listen rather than speak. All these things – waiting, relinquishing control, listening – are active things. These are the things we can do. These are the choices we can make. And then we wait. Merton’s prayer is a far cry from the immediate gratification which is entrenched in twenty-first century expectations. The God in whose hands Merton places himself entirely is not a God to be moulded to our needs, not a God who fits into our time frame. Today, simply make a space to wait for God. Notice how you feel, the deep relief and surrender as you let go of expectations and the need to direct and control.
Just be there.
Do not hurry.
Do not be impatient.
Just confidently obey the eternal rhythm.